So I easily found my sleep medication this morning that I couldn't find last night so no sleep. I feel depressed and in pain....not S but don't know how to move on. Niece's (daughter of my hostile sister) graduation and party tomorrow, so much to do before I go to Florida on the 3rd for two weeks (added pressure) and daughter will be gone for most of next week starting today. Not doing well and not feeling optimistic of pulling out of it. I don't like this. To bring more joy, hostile sis is coming by today to tell everyone what to wear to graduation.