Thanks. I am very nervous about going. My doctor wanted to increase my Sertraline, but I don't want to be heavily medicated and feel like it's not working. If that makes sense. I'd rather go to someone who deals with the ins and outs of mental health to make sure I'm getting the right care.

Overall, I guess I do handle it pretty well, which I am thankful for. But there have been so many times in my life (more as I get older) when I'm driving home at night, and think how easy it would be to just drive off road. I tell myself I would NEVER do that to my children. They are what has kept me focused all this time. But I'm scared that one day I might do it. I know that's not normal and that's how bad it can get for me. This is not something I share with people. I told my husband once (it was a couple years ago), but he doesn't get this stuff. I know I put him through hell sometimes trying to keep up with my moods.