With my oldest (9), I had a smooth pregnancy and only light ppd. At the time I denied my illness and was on no drugs. There were no major issues for several years.

Same with my son (7) except no ppd. Still denying my illness, still not taking meds.

Fast forward about 1 1/2 years later, I had a nervous break down. Shortly there after, I got pregnant with my last (3). I had to take meds because they were very afraid of sui, even taking lithium (outside of 1st trimester when it's less concerning), during my pregnancy. I had to be hospitalized when she was 6 or 8 weeks old and the ppd was severe and seemed never ending.

Those are my experiences and I wouldn't change them for the world. I did have my tubes tied at the direction of my pdoc as he didn't think I could handle another (he was probably right).

I think you should consider other's experiences but most of all, do what others have mentioned and seek all of the professional advise you can. Understanding your options and concerns is VERY important and you aren't being selfish, you are being wise. Make sure you avoid any gp who will suggest against pregnancy just because of your illness. They do exist.