I'm stuck today. Feeling a lot of internal pain. Sire had a private convo with T. They obviously discussed some things I can't handle, and it was floating around in my head as I woke up this morning. Yay, coconsciousness. I feel like I'm going to throw up, and headaches and dizziness and my thoughts are like lead. I feel like all I can do is endure it. I'll probably end up making some disturbing artwork before the day is out. I hope so. It would help.