Talked to my T on the phone. Feeling better. I get what the trigger was. Several others were upset. It was a long conversation but I could feel everyone relax at the end. There was a lot of fear about the past and some realized we are actually safe here and now. I was also trying to dig up some of Sire's trauma material because I was afraid of it--go figure. Like a car accident or something I just couldn't look away. I'm over it for now. We've got some places to go and people to see and we're just going to focus outward as much as we can for the rest of the evening.