i so relate. honestly. i am 35 and never even been on a date. i am horrible at maintaining friendships. i know it has to be something with me...even if its just some vibe i put off to others.

i know i fear getting really close to anyone but i don't mind having friends and i wouldn't mind dating, its just that...any time i do hang out with friends, it lasts a few yrs tops and they are outta my life

i don't get it

i wish i had better answers for you. just to say though you are not alone