last night i found porn on our computer in our history. (no i dont go searching for it, our history pops up when the internet pops up). i confronted my boyfriend about it because he knows how much i hate porn. i really dont want any of the "well porn isnt bad" because i hate it, end of story. anyways, he said he didnt even like it. he didnt masturbate to it and the whole time he was looking he didnt know why he was. he said that he thinks he is trying to sabotage our relationship because of how good we have been lately and he doesnt feel like he deserves me. i feel like a fool giving him my trust again because i dont want to get hurt by him twice but i still love him and still want to be with him. but i cant help but feel hurt that he was doing this. he is scared (and so am i) that it will never be the same. i tried listening to some of the songs that make me think about him and they just made me cry. i dont know what to do. any time a guy has cheated or anything i just left so i dont know how to get over it. im kind of associating him looking but not knowing why with depression because i know how much it can mess a person up when it comes to sex. but he doesnt have health insurance to go to a therapist. what am i supposed to do?