Ok, quick backround; I was off work for around four weeks due to Major depressive disorder. I'm due to go back on tuesday. I feel like my depression has "lifted" and feel fit to return to work, but i still have a couple of issues.

So the depression got to the stage where i think i experienced some physios. I kept hearing my name whispered when i was alone in my room and i felt hands touching me a few times, i also felt a lot of paranoia in the form of others persecuting me. This these thoughts went away, but now i feel they are back.

As soon as i leave my flat everyone stares at me and talks about me, I see people laughing at me too. This causes large amounts of anxiety for me, I find it very frightening and difficult to ignore. i was on a crowed bus yesterday and the looks got to much and i just got off before i needed to.

Is paranoia and feeling like every one hates you/ talks about you a normal part of low self esteem and depression? I have been told by many it is irrational, i still believe they are just trying to shut me up though.

One other thing, when i'm sitting in my room and the window is open i hear constant whispers. Its really odd because it sounds like the voice is in my ear, although very quite. another way it sounds is if there are tiny people on the floor, which i'm aware sounds silly, its just the way it seems. My flat is on the 5th floor,so yes the window open exposes sounds of people outside, but the whispers sound like the voices are near me (i cant tell what they are saying) shutting the window stops the voices though, but its very hot so id like the window open its just very annoying and distracting.

I live in the UK so i need to wait a few weeks (maybe more) for an NHS psychiatrist, unfortunately i cant afford a private one. I have a docs appointment in two weeks (shes on holiday)

i guess i'd just like some advice, personal experience. Is this maybe a sign i'm not ready to go back to work? Mood wise i feel fine (btw i wasn't diagnosed with any psychosis. (my gp doesn't like to diagnose as shes not that experienced in mental health issues, she just passed me on to psychiatry)