Please try not to blame yourself for what others have done. Knowing the difference between OUR stuff and THEIR stuff is a big key. People who are cruel and bullying are ignorant and insecure. People who say "you should" are trying to tell you who you are; that is a violation. you were a vulnerable innocent child and taken advantage of; that was never your fault. Everyone is responsible for their own behavior. I am sorry that happened to you. xo