Yes, with time my feelings of hurt, anger, resentment, powerlessness, fear, and betrayal have lessened....they say time is the healer of all things..........You say you are waiting for..'....some sign...' isn't the birthday card a sign by the definition of signs, right? Perhaps that was your friend's way of reaching out, no? I haven't gotten any sign in my case that they want this too, yet I love MYSELF deep down and am not going to be tooooo dependent on getting that meet 'halfway..' You could write exactly that, to your friend, in an email, about meeting halfway, about a sign from your friend, you may have to give up the desire for 2 way communication but this way you won't be interrupted you can WRITE IT ALL OUT, EVERYTHING...right? You could even give your friend a link to this thread if you so desire...