Thanks everyone for understanding and not being hard on me. I'm having a particularly bad bipolar day, probably triggered by drinking last night. I had to take my klonopin for anxiety and slept for a few hours to just not feel the sadness. I just woke up and I want to cry. I know I could use a good cry. I can't even bring myself to do the pile of laundry that is forever growing (if it's anything in life that must be done, laundry and dishes are the culprit). I guess I'm just going to relax and try to keep calm.