I just don't get it. I have had some trouble with depression since my first marriage failed but I have kept it under control with medication and keeping my outlook positive.

I've had a lot happened to me since 2017 came around. At the end of 2016 I was doing really good. I had a girl that I had gotten close to. My kids where doing ok. I had a plan to move forward to allow my daughter to go to UT when she graduated from HS in two years. My mood was ok. I was actually happy.

Mistake

On Jan I get a frantic call from my daughter begging me to pick her up. (Can't go into why) Since then I had to go to court to get custody of my daughter. I got fired from work without warning. I couldn't get unemployment. My mother falls and breaks both arms so I have to move in with her to take care of her. Then to add to the pile, my girlfriend dumps me. She didn't want to be with me since I had so many new responsibilities in my life.

I held on. I worked the problems and didn't let them work me. I won custody of my daughter. My mom is almost recovered. I got a better paying job in the technology industry like I enjoy. I've overcome a lot. I should be proud of myself for what I've done. But I can't. I can't shake this feeling of being worthless and that the only thing I have to look forward to is struggle and loneliness. I am angry with myself for letting my wall down and getting close to someone. She hurt me.