I am diagnosed with PTSD, dissociative disorder, avoidant personality disorder, major recurring depression, anxiety and possible ADD.

I was doing really good. Even had my first relationship. But it ended a few months ago. Now I feel back to square one.

What I am getting to is does anyone else have the feeling like they are making it harder for themselves? Why did I handle things better when I had someone? Why do I feel like crap now? I just don't get it.