I do not feel that I have had any deep sleep at all since September when my beautiful daughter suddenly died. She was on life support and I lay with her while it was switched off. I expected it to be peaceful but it wasn't it was horrifying... cannot even say.
As soon as I get the dozing off feeling I'm suddenly awake. This can happen many times through the night. The only times I sleep any better is with a lot of alcohol. A few times I have drank in the middle of the night out of desperation to get some rest.
The GP prescribed zopiclone for 5 days, while it helped me to fall asleep a little sooner it made no difference at all to the continual waking up. Every waking up is a re remembering of that devastating day.
I cannot continue like this