Thank you for sharing so many details. I learn so much from others at PC, including you. In your struggle to understand what you are feeling--your words express emotions more simply and purely than I ever could. What you have felt, I have felt but I could never express it in such a wonderful way.

It is a great blessing to be mobile and amazing how weak we get in when we are immobile in a hospital bed. I was only stuck in a traditional hospital (including ICU) for 20 days and it took me more than 2 years to feel stronger. So I can imagine (to some extent) what the process must be like. A hospital is something you endure only because you must. I hope you don't have to do any more extended stays.....

I am so glad you post at PC. It is funny how that having limitations can make us more thankful for what we are able to do. I hope you continue to get stronger, both mentally and physically. Movement and thought are the essence of life. <<hugs>>