Hi Partipoodle. Welcome to Psych Central. I am sorry for the loss of your daughter. How traumatic that must have been for you. No wonder you are having trouble getting a good night's sleep. You seem to be having flashbacks in your dreams.

Besides the sleeping meds, what counseling for trauma have you considered? In UK it is necessary to really speak up if you have a need or get a referral for your doctor. If you feel so exhausted you find it hard to continue, please reach out to the Samaritans no matter how much support NHS gives you. Samaritans |

If you are having suicidal thoughts, please consider forming a safety plan. There are ways to cope with these kinds of stress, like self care and having a safety plan in case you find yourself in a crisis of confidence. Here is more on a safety plan that includes numbers for crisis lines that serve your area. http://psychcentral.com/search/?Matc...y+plan&x=0&y=0

Here are crisis lines that can help you through crisis. http://psychcentral.com/lib/common-h...phone-numbers/ or Samaritans |

Please feel free to reply or send a Psych Central personal message to me. I am still trying to heal from the loss of my dad.