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Originally Posted by Amyjay
I have the history report that was given to my psychologist and in there it said "the dissociated parts were terrorized into silence by the extensive training component of the abuse" but I don't know where that came from or what it means. I am too scared to ask my psychologist about it because.... i don't know I am just scared. I am scared there is something i don't know and don't want to know. I know I have to talk to her when she comes back from vacation about the parts being too scared to tell her who they are though. She knows their names they just cant say "I am Jess" or whoever when they are there in front of her and that is what she wants them to be able to do. She has been pressuring to do that for weeks and weeks and it is just too hard.
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Could you tell her that you are not ready yet for that deepness? I would say, most likely if the parts are scared to identify themselves to her, that for whatever reason, they do not trust or feel safe enough with her yet.
When it comes to the trauma work, especially with DID, it takes a very long time, longer than almost anything else. I wonder if her pressuring feels threatening to them in some way.
Recently, my T and I started lightly discussing integration and my opinion of it and whether I feel it would ever be a possibility, in the way most people hear the word (parts becoming one). Even barely touching on the subject sent me into a tail spin that I was not prepared for and am still reeling from. My system isn't ready to even go near that.
I wonder if it's the same with you and yours when it comes to this? By identifying themselves, they may feel like what they say can then be used against them...
I don't know, just throwing out ideas...