i'm not sure if this is ok to ask or not, but i an hoping it's ok.

i am having alot of confusion on something, never was happy in a marriage, in fact just couldn't get into the sex thing unless totally drunk, got to the point of hated to have sex at all with my husband, but would pick and joke with other men that would come into my place of work, (bar)
he got mad and that is what caused the breakup. but have been thinking for a couple years now of how it would be with to be with a girl instead of men. wonder if it would be better, etc? never thought of my self feeling this way before, but it seems to be coming into my thoughts alot.
any response is ok,