My dissociation is much different than that. I generally just realize that I am staring at one spot on the wall/ceiling or if I'm outside, a tree or something, while my brain either cycles through bad memories and or catastrophic thinking, or if it's a "good" dissociation, I end up thinking about nothing. I might loose track of time sometimes. But if I'm interrupted by the phone or someone talking to me, it breaks the dissociation. I often am confused for a few minutes, but can basically function like nothing ever happened within a few minutes. I've only had a couple that were hard to break out of.
I rarely get the good dissociation anymore. They used to be my coping mechanism, my way of De-stressing. Now dissociation seems to be a way for my mind to torture me.
I've started listening to some meditation music when I'm really stressed out to avoid the progression to dissociation, and it seems to be working for me.
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"Do you know what’s really scary? You want to forget something. Totally wipe it off your mind. But you never can. It can’t go away, you see. And… and it follows you around like a ghost."
~ A Tale of Two Sisters (Janghwa, Hongryeon) (2003)
"I feel like an outsider, and I always will feel like one. I’ve always felt that I wasn’t a member of any particular group."
~ Anne Rice
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