I'm sorry you're going through such a tough time. I really understand. I think it's incredible and impressive that you've made it this long without anything rearing its ugly head. You could try the inner child exercises although like you I'd feel kind of strange talking to an empty chair.

I've heard of re-parenting yourself. I'm sure you could find good inner child exercises out there. I wish you the best of luck and hope you feel better soon.

I apologize if I offended you or brought up something painful. I just know I have a few issues related to that and though you might as well. I work on my issues in therapy as well.