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Originally Posted by AlwaysChanging2
Just as title says.
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in my location and culture integration isnt like you see in the movies (you know like that Sybil scene where she is hypnotized, or that death scene in three faces of Eve, the off to the hospital to get integrated final scene of US of Tara)
for me it was just the natural healing process. As i learned to take care of my own problems and self my alters were no longer needed as separate identities to do those things for me. the result we just naturally became one whole person...
example...
Rainy was my alter that would take control any time I dissociated due to storms. how that would happen is I would be in control and not dissociated, then a storm would happen. this would cause me to feel scared/ panicky then those feelings would go away as I started having my dissociation symptoms of feeling numb, spaced out and disconnected. Then rainy would be in control dealing with the problem that caused me to dissociate... the storm by getting us to safety if we were out in the elements, changed into dry warm clothing, a blanket and find a quiet place to cry and wait out the storm. then when I was no longer triggered by the storm (no longer dissociated) I was back in control.
As I became more stable and able to handle my own problems I no longer dissociated...
when a storm was coming I would use my grounding and self nurturing techniques (breath, look for shelter, get dry and find a comfortable place to wait out the storm, maybe even a cup of coffee and a nice warm meal)
because I was no longer dissociating Rainy was not taking control, she knew by how I was feeling and what I was doing that I was doing everything needed.
well this went on for a bit where I was co conscious a bit with Rainy and both of us knew I was able to take care of the body and mind...then during one storm I realized I could remember why storms bothered me, I could remember those feelings, I could do everything that Rainy did, I was now everything that rainy was, we were now one whole person again.
this natural integration happened with all my alters and I. we never did anything like you see in the movies where they are forcing the alters to integrate..
I did though at one time research those ways of using ECT hypnosis and such you see in movies turned out those things in movies usually only caused more harm then good (which is probably why here where I am and all the treatment providers I have had never used those things for integrating alters since the 1950-60's, they still use those therapy techniques but for other things like depression, and other mental disorders.)