Today and some of yesterday i was feeling really blank... to the point that I cut off all my friends as of last night. I ignored a few knocks on my room when I knew she wanted to go out to eat or something, ignored some sad msns/phone calls from someone I care about.

I'm still feeling well... unfeeling. But I'm thinking about tommorrow. Today I just stayed in my room all day. Tommorrow I have classes, and rehearsal with one of those friends who I basically blew off because I just couldn't handle facing everything and putting on my normal happy face.

what do I say.... I cant say I was in my room working because well then I'd have to explain why I ignored.... wasnt practicing or at school where she would have seen me.... just what do I do. And about my other friend too .... I just dont know.
I dont want to have to face it but I will and I dont want to show this unfeeling cold and horrible side of me to them