im just so nervous because its a guy therapist... and omg its in 2 days, how did it get here so fast

but im going to do it... i gotta do it... im in a lot of trouble and i need serious help.....

i just got scared... really scared all of a sudden

its too soon, i feel afraid like i dont know if im going to be able to handle it you know?
i have just been trying not to think about it....

what am i supposed to do?