Yes I'm a teen, 19 years old...

I'm a shy kind of person, with the kind of friends where you don't have many but the ones you do have a relatively close. But i just don't want to tell them. Maybe it's that I'm afraid to, embarrased to, maybe it's that they see this one side of me that's generally been there and I don't want to be this person who sits in her room not CARING how someone else feels because I can't feel enough to care, or I still care but not enough to do something about it. maybe
it's also that I don't trust them enough. One of them, for instance is really sweet but without meaning to shares things with EVERYONE.... another I'm just afraid it wont be accepted. Others I just wouldn't even think of it.
I just don't trust people... and am not used to expressing emotions like this... it took me a while to even start posting on here... a long while.