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Old May 28, 2017, 04:33 PM
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Originally Posted by yagr View Post
You know what my biggest fear is? I've never told anyone - not my T, not my wife, no one - here it is: As disease and chronic pain wear me down, I fear that I will have healed and grown and lived only to end up a miserable, angry, spiteful person on my deathbed. I fear that - not death. Sounds like your mother is living my fear. So let me tell you now, while I'm still kicking, if that's how I end up, it wasn't anyone's fault but mine. Your mom isn't being miserable, angry, and spiteful at you - it's who she is. You deserved better and you still do. Deserving isn't the same as getting though, but the lack isn't about you.

Friend. I can not imagine you being miserable, angry or spiteful. You are too kind and caring with a wonderful sweet spirit.

Thank you for saying this. I've read it several times as I sit here. It is truth!
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