Blue
I am very worried for you,I also lost trust/confidence in the law as a child,though here in the states.....I will share this with you.

At around the age of 12 I had been hangin with friends my age and there was a older boy 18-19 that we hung with he stayed with a friend and his mother, and one night I learned he was molesting my friend when I stayed over...though I don't think my friend realized this was wrong,or that I had caught them at it.
anyway we lived in the middle of nowhere and the older guy was my ride home the next evening only my friend did not ride with us...I had been around the older kid allot with other friends and never knew what he was till now... hoping he would not try nothing with me on the ride home was a mistake...he pulled his 4x4 truck off on a dirt road on the other side of a canal that seperated the dirt road to my house and stopped and started trying to talk me into letting him mess with me..when I would not he just started anyway....I have always been quick witted and fast so I managed to get the door open and fall out on the ground beside the truck, then took off running and jumped in the canal and crossed it, not ever even worrying about the snakes and alligators it was filled with....I managed to get to the other side and struggeled up to the next road and took of through the woods toward home...never knowing if he was after me or not...I already had a violent home life and was not suprised to return to this...only this time it was different....my step father and mother had been arguing and he was on edge...he ended up later throwing my mother(she was pregnant with my half brother at the time) and I in a room and locking us in...he was in the drug business and extremly paranoid about something...I had forgot about what had happened to me since my mother was so stressed and I was trying to figure out what was going on at home...the next day I decided to contact the police about my step father physicaly abusing me and my mother...never mentioning the other thing...and agreed to help set him up for manufacturing if they would take me out of my home and place me in foster care(I just wanted to get away) ....I was very scared of my step father and now even being around my friends again...but I told the police only if they would not arrest my mother would I give them the information they needed...they agreed

they did the bust and arrested my mother anyway....so I did not speak in court about the physical abuse from my step father...even though they wanted me to

My mother did not forgive me for this for a long time(why I did not trust the police for so long after)......and after going from a place were other childern in similar situations went, then to my mothers mother and then other family and then another similar place to the first.......I had no where else to go...they could not find anymore family to take me at this point....and my mother stayed with my step father after a short stay in jail......I was scared to go back home and my mother let me know I was not welcome anyway....later my fathers mother who I had barely knew agreed to take me....no one knew where my father was......not long after my mother and step father went to prison for manufacturing again...this time I had nothing to do with it.

I stayed with this grandmother(good women) till age 16 and got out on my own.

I had been through ALLOT of other abuse before all the above and did not even know it at the time, but the worst was the feeling of "abandonment by my mother".

At around age 19, I called my stepfather and begged him to forgive me after he got out of prison the second time...then I talked to my mother, this time she was the one wanting to get away.

Later after she left him we slowly started to build a relationship over the phone...and now all she wants to do is talk bad about him...but I am over this part and let her know that all it does for me is bring back bad thoughts...she does let me know that she is sorry now and over thanksgiving made the comment that she did make allot of mistakes but would not change them if she could since I now have more than she could ever thought I would
and the most beautiful wife and children,who she loves very much.

I guess what I am trying to say is I kinda know how you feel
though your situation does sound worse.

I want you to focus on things that you want in life and think about them before you go to sleep every night...thats what I did,even though it was hard..I am now 33

Do you fear losing contact with your brother when you get older? Not sure how old he is now but mabey you can get him to register on this board and remember his user name and password so you can always get back in contact by pm....if you do fear this.

Kind Regards
Eddie