I had never fantasized about being married to her because I know she is taken and to waste even one wishful moment wishing she was mine would be a waste of time. I only saw her a total of 4 days a year but it felt really good that I had a loyal client and one that was so nice to me while onsite. I am very upset at myself for pissing her off and losing her as a client. I take full ownership and if I hurt somebody, I at least wanted to let them know how sorry and to beg for forgiveness. I didn't even have a chance to apologize and the whole time she was tearing into me, I was trying to speak up and calm her down but I was so scared, I was shaking. I was trying to say something but it seemed like my mouth was glued shut. I don't even remember what she was yelling at me about, I was just shocked that someone could have that much rage. My friend said if she was abusing me, I should have turned and just walked away but I think if I did that, that would have pissed her off even more so I just stood there until she told me she was done with me and I was free to go.