This happens to me as well...After drinking it's sometimes so obvious that I need to cut. But for now I need to do it still, I know it's not good but I need it. I can talk my brain out but I still need it, because I can't cope right now and don't want others to convince me to not do it and when I stop they will be very content and don't care that I suffer more than if I'd be still cutting. The drinking part is something I don't enjy though, and I'm trying to reduce that.