i ended up impulsively deciding to go to my T's game night. i was a little late because it was a last minute decision. i played a game with T and 2 other people. I had fun and it was a nice break from my ****ing brain and the voices...however after about an hour and a half i guess they got mad that i was ignoring them and started chiming in extra loud. i got distracted possibly even visibly so- my T whispered my name at one point? anyway that really embarrasses me so i said i was going to go and left. ugh. i am glad i went i had fun for a short time there, so yeah. maybe next time i decide to go i can make it the whole length haha