Understanding your patterns of ups and downs is a huge step towards recovery. Once you have a handle on that, then maybe you can delve a little deeper into what goes on during the ups or downs. Sometimes recovery is not necessarily getting rid of your MI but learning to cope and live with it. One thing to keep in mind, is be patient with yourself. Recovery is a slow process. Changes may be so small as to be non noticeable, but after a period of time you will look back and see how far you've come.

I hope you can get relief soon.