I'm struggling with the knowledge of not having my session tomorrow because of the holiday. I wasn't happy at first about the situation but was okay with it. Now? I feel... I don't know what word to use to label my feelings at the moment. Perhaps I feel a level of devastation at the realization of your absence since last Tuesday. You'll be back this Tuesday, but I still won't have my session until next week. I remember last year you came on a holiday to see me because you knew I needed you. This year, you didn't do the same, and it feels sort of wretched I guess. I'm jealous that your other clients get to have your attention this week and I don't. It hurts I guess. It hurts not being that important anymore.