I was talking to some people tonight.. And the topic switched to suicide and cutting, and then how people who cut only do it for attention.. I was furious with them.. I tried to explain my side of it without telling them i cut and they were completely hard-headed... They would not listen to a word i said, because in their minds, "cutting is wrong, only crazy people do it, and they all want to die".. Ugh.. i wanted to scream at them..
It's like, just because i cut myself, doesn't mean im a bad person.. And im not crazy.. just a little confused.. and well, just recently have i wanted to die.. But in the begining, it wasn't about death at all.. They made me so mad..

And.. as usual.. I cut again.. I was trying not to.. but i wanted to die soo much tonight that I did.. it's kinda deep too.. Well, moreso than usual.. ugh.. it seems like right when things are becoming a little more bearable, i have to go and slip.. Go figure..

And worst off, lately I have had the desire to cut more and more, and deeper and deeper.. I've been trying soooo much to stop, and not do it.. it is just soo hard.. Does anyone else ever get the urge to cut deeper and deeper?