This is ridiculous and I can't fathom why I reacted this way. My parents were asking me what was wrong and all I did was laugh. WTF? And now they both believe I made up everything. I know I don't cope with emotions well, but I don't understand why I was LAUGHING. Now I made them all upset and I feel guilty.

The problem is I know I don't cope with emotions well. Usually my work gives me a lot of anxiety, and I end up ruminating it to my family members who get annoyed by it. I tried coping it inside and letting all my emotions boggled up inside, and tried coping with everything so I don't have to resort to my parents or anyone else, and that didn't work out too well. Instead, I was so focused on my thoughts I couldn't tell what was going on around me. I became forgetful, thinking and concentration was very hard to do, which made me more anxious. Eventually it led to a breaking point, where I wasn't "with it" and would just think about all of my issues instead of solving anything, and then I refused to tell my parents how I felt because I didn't want them to think I'm crazy. I tried coping really well and for whatever reason guys, I just couldn't do it. I sort of want to be like everyone else who copes with problems, and keep it inside and function normal but for some reason I just couldn't.

I just can't understand why I was laughing. I want them to understand but there is no point at the moment. In fact, after this, they have every right to believe I made it all up because when the point came to ask all I did was just laugh. I don't know. I just feel guilty how I seriously just made my parents really depressed. It's all my fault.