OK, so D and H are both off today for Memorial Day. We have marriage counselor at 2, and H's mom is watching D while we're there (and for a bit after). I had asked H last night if he was taking D anywhere (in the hopes that I could get some work done--I work from home and have two things due tomorrow), and he said he wasn't planning on it. I was like, "Uh, OK," since I know he's been doing some other stuff with her this weekend (though one was taking her to the child care thing at the gym so he could work out, then they did pool together).

D has been super clingy with me for much of today (wanting to be on my lap, etc.) since she got up at 6:30, though she's been up with him or in her room for part of the time. H had talked about wanting a hair cut, and i mentioned how D seems like she needs one now, too. He asked if she wanted one today, and she eventually said yes. I figured H was OK with it. But then when they were leaving a few minutes ago, I told H I appreciated him taking her out, and that if he wasn't feeling up to it, then he didn't have to go. He said, in a rather cold voice, "I'm taking her, OK? I don't want to talk about it." I said he sounded angry at me, and he was just like, "I'm taking her. That's all." I said I was sorry and he just seemed irritated. Incidentally, it's only an hour earlier than he would have had to leave to take her to his mom's anyway (MC is right up the street from his mom's--and we generally drive separately there).

So now I suspect I'm going to be in for it in MC's office, with H complaining about having to watch her for a chunk of the weekend--we went out with friends Sat. night, and his dad/stepmom watch her then. And I had brunch with some (female) friends yesterday--which is the sort of thing H encourages me to do, get out of the house and see people more!--so that's why he had her out a few hours then. Then the three of us (me, H, D) were out together for dinner yesterday. And I've been the one getting up when D gets up, which is 6:30 or so lately--and I am NOT a morning person!--while H can chill in bed (though he'll often be awake) for another couple hours. So it's not like I'm not making big contributions.

It's just, I'm already nervous about marriage counseling today because of the conversation with MC at end of session yesterday. Now I'm afraid H is going to lay into me. And then it's likely going to end up again, how H is right, and I need to be working less and taking care of D more and giving him a break (when I do a whole bunch of behind the scenes stuff for her, too). And MC will agree with H and I"ll feel like this needy, pathetic person. So kind of dreading the appointment now...

(Also, if it makes any difference, H will be doing his sport of choice at some point the next two weekends, so I'll be solely responsible for D for like 4 hours or more each of those days. So to me it evens out. But I'm sure he'll just get pissed if I point that out...) Just dreading what he's going to say. Anyone want to hop in my pocket?