First of all don't practice self blaming, that's not good for you. For some reason you struggled to articulate how you are struggling. And it sounds like your parents are not very helpful when it comes to your needing help/guidance. When one reaches out for help, sometimes they simply reach out to the wrong people. If you gained from seeing a therapist, then I recommend asking for that instead because as I mentioned, your parents are most likely ill suited to actually provide the help and guidance you are looking for. This is not unusual either, it happens all the time and often it's the parent's lacks that are part of the problem to begin with.