i love the christmas holidays. i continue to partake in the celebrations as much as i can.

as children, christmas is a magical time. now, as adults, where did all that magic go? i'm not talking about magic in the literal sense or in the sense of being happy, but in the sense where the world seems like a wonderful place to be in. for those of us who are missing the magic of christmas, how do we find it and get it back? creating new traditions is not enough. i want to feel that mystical feeling that i used to be able to feel. oh, god, i want the magic back into my life.