Dear sadandlonely, I just want to congratulate you for making it this far. Well done. You are a lot stronger than you think. You are amazing, after all that you've been through and your words are filled with courage. I am so sure you will find your way through to the "light", as they say. Don't be so hard on yourself. Life has been so very tough for you. You cannot expect to bounce back just like that. My life is nowhere as difficult as yours and I'm already in therapy. I cannot imagine what I'll do if anything like what you've experienced happened to me. If it were a physical hurt, you're be in hospital recuperating and maybe going for physiotherapy or something. But just because it's an emotional hurt, we think we can recover just like that. Emotional hurt is not different from physical hurt. Take care of yourself the way you might a physical hurt. You're very brave and strong. I admire you so much.