I had a really good session last week. It felt good. It was very intimate, she pulled me toward her and out of the state I was in when I arrived, deep within myself.

I felt myself trusting, relaxing and my body language opening up, verbally opening up, my mind relaxing from it's scrunched-up worried state.

But I can barely remember anything we talked about though! I can recall several sentences and a topic we were on briefly, but the rest I remember is just feeling.

Why it bugs me is that I like to tell her when I think a session was really good. Then she'll ask me what was good about it. Often I don't know exactly what to say. And I feel like I disappoint her if I can't tell her what she said that felt good.

A few weeks ago I was sitting in the waiting room, looking forward to telling her that the previous session felt very good and was meaningful to me and suddenly I became a frantic nervous wreck and by the time I sat down in the room I was nearly in a panic attack! About all I could get out then was that the prior session was "good", as if I have a 7-word vocabulary.... "Good" "Bad" "Yeah" "No" "I don't know"

Do you remember everything? Can you always expain why a session was good?

I want to tell her that last week was really good. It felt good, like I said. Also, I had a vision moment like I've had before. I haven't told her about that one and I don't know about telling her about this one.

The one before was a vision or feeling of a baby reaching out to the person who is leaning toward me, interested, connecting with me. T was doing this by moving her chair closer and leaning toward me and that gentle wonderful voice of hers.

This time it a vision or feeling of being with a teacher or other adult that I would hang around, hoping they would notice me (rescue me, love me). It was like I finally found that.. Like a feeling of being here, but back 'there' too, at the same time.

Well I rambled there from my questions...

Do you remember everything? Can you always expain why a session was good?