Thank you for providing the best and nicest reply so far. I am glad someone gets what I was trying to say in my post.

I will go Tues I guess and just see how I feel about Friday. I think he is allowing it because my only other source of support right now is out of the country for 3 weeks. He has been very kind to me but yes I know, I am "just another client" however my insurance pays for it, not me LOL

At any rate, thank you again. I will do my best to push through because I've had these phobias since childhood and that is one thing I REALLY wanna overcome.

Also he wont care if I only go 1 instead of 2, he was just offering it this week to me.. the second one... because apparently its his job, not to be nice.