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SweetCrusader said:
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No, EV, I haven't told her yet. I would like to get her opinion, too.

</div></font></blockquote><font class="post"> not telling others...was that part of abuse when younger?</font><blockquote><div id="quote"><font class="small">Quote:</font>

Why am I so afraid to terminate with him? This situation is such a huge trigger

</div></font></blockquote><font class="post"> you're confused because when one has their boundaries violated it can become hard to remember we all have the right to say no! and to totally control who touches our bodies and how.</font><blockquote><div id="quote"><font class="small">Quote:</font>

I feel really messed up. I hate feeling like I can't be in control of who touches me and how. I hate feeling so powerless. My mom used to make fun of my physical boundaries, saying they are too rigid. She used to say "you have rules" as if that's a bad thing (in a really mocking tone). I feel like I'm not allowed to be bothered by this. And I feel like I'm making a big deal out of nothing.

</div></font></blockquote><font class="post"> you're totally allowed to be bothered by this! if anything, in our not so humble opinion, you're not making a BIG enough deal out of this.</font><blockquote><div id="quote"><font class="small">Quote:</font>

But it just felt so wrong when he was rubbing my legs

</div></font></blockquote><font class="post"> *shudders* oh SC please stop seeing this person at once. please relate what has taken place to your other T as soon as you're able. and please please please know that none of this was your fault and you're totally right to trust your gut that nobody has the right to touch your body w/o your consent.

wishing you strength as you continue your healing journey.