I'm not well. I've spent this day on the edge of consciousness. No sleep last night, but I did sleep some this morning. I think I've spent about 4 hours zoned out--I just stare and can't move, and someone else stops my thoughts. For my good I'm sure; I keep trying to go down the ugly memory rabbit hole. Stuff is leaking out and I just would really like to take care of everyday life. I'm in a lot of pain. Not sure what needs to happen to get pass this.