Hi. I've somewhat posted on this topic under a different title, so for those of you who may have read the other post, please forgive the repitition. Anyway, to make a long story short, I had a severe case of tardive dyskinesia that thankfully reversed and I am no longer having symptoms. It was an absolute hellish torture and not one that I would wish on my worst enemy. I am just so thankful it has resolved, considering my age (60). Given what I have gone through and given the fact that ALL antipsychotic medications can cause tardive dyskinesia (yes, I have researched them all), I will never, ever take the risk of developing this condition again. I just can't chance it. I have been going through a manic cycle and am having insomnia, rapid speech, anxiety, short temper, and rushing all over the house trying to get things done. I'm not having racing thoughts though, which is unusual because I always have them when I'm manic. My psychiatrist suggested lithium but I can't take that because of kidney problems. I see her in two weeks (I'm not in crisis mode right now so I think I can wait). I know she's going to suggest another AP again and I'm going to refuse. I'm really not familiar with what happens when you're noncompliant. Can she force me to take it? Can she have me hospitalized against my will? I've never refused to do anything she's suggested before so I don't know what will happen and probably none of those things will happen. I just don't feel like I have any options. I'm going to discuss it with her, but I'm afraid anything she may suggest is going to do me harm. I'm pretty scared and pretty desperate too. Just as a side note, I've only been going to see her for a couple of months because my previous psychiatrist retired. I don't like her at all. She talks down to me, doesn't listen to me and constantly interrupts and is completely unsympathetic. I am looking for a new one but it will probably take a couple of months to get in, because there aren't many in our community.