Why is everything so hard on me. Trying to crochet and I break down in tears because I can't figure out the pattern. Like what the **** is wrong with me? I even tried something new today. A spiritual session to help rid my negative thoughts and here I am 8 hours later having a break down. It like I try then fail hard. And when I'm drowning in my emotions idk how to make it better. I just want to be happy but that seem impossible. Everything is just so heavy on me right now. Like a burden. Even when I know nothing is wrong. I don't understand it. Anything sets me off. I just want to curl up and die. Or at least just stay in bed for a year. Idk I'm just so lost and hopeless. I just don't know.