So... to update. Things have been pretty good. I'm coping better with the days we don't get to talk much. Things have settled a little bit with her job and most of her friends are gone for the summer so she has a little more time for me.

My issue is still how I'm reacting to her and her boyfriend. I overreacted a little before in calling him her boyfriend. They aren't official yet - just went on their first official date last week, but they've hung out other times and they are texting. I've been tying to be super supportive and asking questions and tying to give her advice when she asks for it. But talking about it with her sort of makes me sick and I get almost sick to my stomach when she talks about him or mentions his name. I don't know what to do... I mean im not gonna tell her not to talk about it or him... and she mostly doesn't. She's just come to me for some reassurance and advice and I've helped out the best I can. And so far it doesn't seem like she's abandoning me now that she has him. Plus she keeps saying she's super unsure anyway about dating him and isn't even sure herself about pursuing an actual relationship - says she likes being single. Although I'm pretty sure she is going to try official dating him and having a relationship. She seems to really like him and the few times they've hung out it's been for several hours at a time so clearly they enjoy each other's company. But, she's hesitant because she was sexually assaulted less than a year ago so her thinking of an intimate relationship really scares her and she's not sure if she's really ready to be in a serious relationship. And I feel horrible for saying it... but that kind of makes me happy - like maybe she won't really want to pursue it or it won't last. How horrible of me to wish that