Not always and not all the time, Sweety. You've had good moments and I know it because you've told me so.
Yes, you're having a really bad go of it right now, but like I was told "nothing lasts forever." It's the truth.
Get your doctor to pay more attentiont to you, to explain why things are taking so long in getting better. Make him dig for an aswer if that's what it takes. Take as much control of your situation as you can. Maybe you need to change doctors. Only you know the answer to that, though.
I'm praying for you, Hon!
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Psalm 119:105 Thy word is a lamp unto my feet, and a light unto my path.