Hi Seesaw. I read your letter. It is well written and honest, and I feel for you. I'm Very sorry you had a difficult childhood. Here is my opinion. If you don't want it, I apologize in advance. I don't think you should send it to him for fathers day. Ok, let me back up. I wouldn't send my dad that kind of letter on fathers day. And my dad is kind of a messed up person too. Why? Because its like a birthday. It's fathers day. And I might wonder how it would be received. How someone might take getting a letter detailing all the things they did wrong in their child's life, on their day. Your father may have been an a-hole to you. And even though you are saying in the letter that you are not coming down on him, and you are soft in some parts, you are coming down in him just the same. If you don't mind me saying so, it seems insensitive. How do you think he will take it? I see that you want to be close to your dad, repair the relationship, from the letter. Is making fathers day about you and how your dad was ****** to you, even though it's true, the best way to repairing a relationship with this person? I don't know. That's for you to decide. Again, I'm terribly sorry for the things you went through. This is just my opinion and I mean no offense.