Thanks to those who gave different perspectives on the "just came into work to make money" thing. I am thankful we got to see him when some of his clients would have had to miss this week. And yes, I certainly can understand him needing the money--and it's not like he's salaried, so the days he's off this week, he's not getting paid for.

I think part of why I'm upset is that at the end of last week's session, he gave the impression that he was really going to think about what I said regarding him giving the impression that I'm the one who always needs to adapt/fix things rather than H. So I figured he'd bring that up at some point instead of waiting for me to do so right near the end. And then not really saying much about it and seeming to put it back on me almost. I was expecting some big Mea culpa and didn't get it. The thing about coming to work to be responsible was more like just salt in the wound.

And so much of it comes down to my attachment and struggles with that. And feeling limited in how I can address it. And how it often feels like one step forward, two steps back. I don't even know if he'll respond to the texts., especially with him being busy this week. I want to explain more but don't want to bombard him--maybe I'll send an email tomorrow if I don't get text response, just because I feel a little bad about my "just a paycheck" text and want to explain. Though I should probably just leave him alone...

Thanks for reading.