I think you are. I do hope that you will get better with time. But you're hanging in there and struggling on. That's really amazing, even though you may not feel like it. I see it like someone born without legs or something just as dramatic. And, just as we cheer people with physical handicaps who somehow cope and struggle on with their lives, how much more must we cheer you on. At least the physically handicapped are not struggling with treatment resistant depression. You're a champion. Really you are.