<font color="purple">So my mom and step-dad have taken a HUGE leap in spirituality the past few weeks. Believe me, I'm happy for them, it's been the first time I have seen my step dad ever being so ...happy, this time of year. (Usualy he is so miserable because it's when his little bi-polar roller coaster reaches a dip) really now, it's such a great thing for them

...
but at the same time...
I am really hating it.

I feel so sad to say this. I mean, how can I be so selfish? It bothers me when they keep on talking about the universe and god. They get so passionate, you know? But it's also a huge change at once too. It's like a 180 from people who worry about keeping their heads above water and comprimising for their families sake, to the whole "god will take care of us" bit. I just don't like it. It just doesn't seem right to me.

The worst though now is that they've stopped hanging around people who are sending out "negative energy" so guess what? That means if you want to vent something, they will pretty much say "sorry, I can't be around you." I mean, how selfish can you possibly get?! Sure, they may have their problems fom "edging god out" but you know what? People vent. People want someone who will litsen to them.

Last few nights ago, my step-dad ALMOST didn't go with us on a little shopping trip to get my friends birthday present because I was feeling upset (think: emiting negative energy). He did end up going, and apologized when I explained to him WHY I was so upset, but it still left a bit of an impact on me.

I feel like now, I can't talk to them about my problems anymore becuse either they'll walk away because they can't take the negative energy, or they'll just come up with the whole "let it go/edging god out" thing. And lord knows I can't talk to my dad/stepmom for whatever reason. (invisible speech barrier?)

...so upset now... </font>