(((Thanks, everybody))) Oh, boy....I actually dunno how best to word this. Please don't judge me, or think I'm hating on anyone. This is my ignorance, but, it's part of what the issue is I have with my friend, so, I'm just sounding off, I admit my attitude warrants a serious reboot. Ty again, your comments have already helped provide me with new thinking.

My friend has combined anxiety/clinical depression. I've had years of very sketchy contact, but, since finding out about her illness, I know why. I'm giving her a break, I hope not permanently so, I just know I'm not good for her just now. What I can't get my head around is, how can someone be that depressed (they say they can't retain a friendship) yet she has a full packed busy life....I know how bad this sounds, but, after all this time, it comes across as an excuse, on her part. Yes, I know it's illness, however...it's like, so your busy, but your depression stops you from reaching out (she was like it before any row) so, what gives? I know that's horrible, truly, but I know it's not all on me. I don't get how or why depression stops people from reaching out, she tells me we are still close, I am not feeling this.